GO AWAY. WHAT PART OF THAT DON'T YOU IDIOTS UNDERSTAND?

i got a friend request from my mom on facebook. i ignored it because chances are it was from my nosey ass sister (trying to get in my business as usual because she has NOTHING better to do with her time) and/or my mom was the nosey one.. even though i'm sure my mom is trying to be nosey but i defriended her in the first place and i think i defriended my sister also because they're nosey as fuck. it's kinda a coincidence that my mom all of a sudden knows how to read when she couldn't read when i was growing up- so she didn't have a job but all of a sudden- *GASP* she CAN read my blog! it's a miracle.. *rolls eyes*. my psychologist said that my sister more than likely told her what i said on my blog- but either way- I STILL HATE nosey people. anyone who CAN'T see and understand exactly WHY i wanna move out of this damn state is a damn moron. i've wanted to move for at least 24 years now. THIS is NOT a new goal. i'm thinking about how amy brought up taking my next trip to either seattle or boston. i'm curious about boston.. so i'm definitely willing to take a trip there. i'm confused on why she brought up seattle though. i've never mentioned anything about seattle in my life. anywhere to get the fuck outta this state i guess. i'd really like to take a trip for an actual purpose instead of just vacation though- seeing as it seems like my money is just getting spent and not invested like when brian and my other previous trustees were handling my money. i'm probably being paranoid but i'm afraid that someone will just say to me one day, "YOUR MONEY IS ALL GONE! YOU SPENT IT ALL! YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE TOOK ALL THOSE TRIPS!" (reason why most of my trips were taken to places i plan on living at in the future) this is also a reason why the ICS company is not willing to help me do things that will help me become more independent because they're not profiting off of helping me when they think i have all the fuckin money in the world. AS I SAID BEFORE IN THIS POST- when i was growing up, my mom did NOT have a job and was dependant on SSI and food stamps (still is). so don't get the idea that i'm made of fuckin money- SO THEY FORCE ME TO PAY FOR PEOPLE TO ASSIST ME WITH BECOMING MORE FUCKIN INDEPENDENT WHEN THEY'LL HELP ANYONE ELSE AT THE DROP OF A HAT (example: how zen claimed i needed to pay for driving lessons and i see him and another client practicing driving yesterday).